there are days.

Have you ever had those days when you felt like your head was disconnected from your body? Yeah...I'm having one of those months. There are days when I wish life would just go back to easy...but, then where would the fun and adventure be? Ha.

So, here I sit in a coffee shop in Baltimore. I can't really say it's my favorite because it's one of the only ones I actually know in the city. But, it will never leave my top 5, that's for sure. A friend introduced me to it several years ago...it's this fun little place that serves amazing food (and a lot of it vegan or vegetarian), great coffee and tea, and beer for when the mood hits. So, basically my kind of place. The vibe is great because it's right near the corner of Johns Hopkins, yet in an artsy area of town. I look around and see all sorts of people. Probably the same type of folk I'd see hanging out at one of my favorite places in Nashville. Therefore, I am happy.

I haven't been blogging much lately because I feel like there is nothing in my head that is worth sharing or maybe there is too much in my head to share. Either way, I've let the silence take over. So, I'm playing catch up. To bring things up to speed: I've decided to stay in Maryland indefinitely, have an interview with a refugee relief agency on Tuesday (in Baltimore), and then am leaving for Nashville and Atlanta on Tuesday night or Wednesday for a week and a half or so to "get away". There is so much more behind all of that, but that's best told in a conversation and not over the www.

Anyway, back to the coffee shop. One World Cafe (in case you are ever in Baltimore). I don't know why I'm so stuck on it. I think it's because it's one of the first things I've done since I've been in Maryland that seems normal to me. Living with my parents - not normal. Not having a job - not normal. Not being in the Duke House and around my friends - not normal. Going through all of these changes at once after being in Uganda for 2 months - not normal. SO, sitting in a coffee shop in the city listening to interesting people having interesting conversations - SUPER NORMAL. And, as silly or trivial as it seems...it illuminates my ability to see how God continues to provide His version of peace (not mine), regardless of the circumstances or situations...which is something I really need to see right now.

Lately, I have been struggling with fear. It's a really weird thing for me because I do not remember a time in my life (more than the occasional instance of fright) where I was fearful of something. The weird thing is, I can't even put my finger on something specific that I'm fearful of. And I've been doing nothing but pray about it. So, I started looking through the Bible to see what God has to say about fear. Have you ever researched the word "fear" in the Bible? Have fun with that. You will be reading for days. Needless to say, I think that I'm on the right path. God, obviously, has something to say to me...I just need to get past my stubbornness and listen.

So, there's my blah blah blah for the evening. It's starting to get a little loud...guess it's the rowdy "vegan beer" crowd. I love it. :O) I just had the most amazing Organic Rooibos tea and a vegan carrot cupcake. Tomorrow, I will go back to eating hard-boiled eggs.

'Night. From the big city.